9.

The kiss I haven’t had

It’s fragile, might break my heart

Might break into my heart

A burglar kiss

But I popped that bubble wrap

All by myself

You only stole the fragile kiss 

I had smothered in useless bubble wrap

8. Unbuffered

Automated perforated tolerated

Beep street creep

Blaring car alarms

Long tall arms

Sticky hold, slimy shiny

Dark green lounge chaise

Leather creases

Bowing down

Too heavy weight

 

Two bodies

Long gone

Concentrate

Bite, tongue

Wait, hold, fall back

Cut lip mouth slack

 

Smash a lamp

To your head

Shotgunned glass

Oops you’re dead

Hazy crazy lemonade

Heaven afterlife?

Eat chips

Suck dicks

I wish you were alive

7. Brave Headaches

Smile too wide

I’m baseless

I leap

Into the leaving lake, but

You give me brave headaches

Now and again

I can’t wash off

The sticky hope in my hand

 

I realized too long ago

I’ll have to break my hand

My mind needs to bleed out

All those brave headaches

They would beget far worse

Than a rescinded invitation

If one erupted

Your emotive vacation

 

So I have no choice

I feel each finger snap

Dripping gold onto the shelf

Hear the sickening crack

Watch the twitching tendons

Play cold notes in the stale air

Recognizing late despair

 

The stars are only winks tonight

In the drawer of your galaxy

I’m sad they finally joined

Your black hole reality

6.

How sound is the fog

Invading me to peace

Record over ignore

I like you the least

5.

You’ve smashed my head from the inside

Maybe if you forcefully push

My skull with acceleration

We will both be oblivious

To internal justifications

 

It would mean

My external fatality

I think you want that, unequivocally

 

Absolution

You’d get an instantaneous hit

As for me: my only, last limit

 

You could have tried

Recently

I sat in place, a sole timpani

Now, mobile evermore

You closed my own guilt trapdoor

4.

I’m your sanctimonious bitch

I threw you away

Now I’m thrashing in a ditch

And you don’t care what I say

 

I hate your violent typing hands

And your presumptuous smirk

Your words made me wet

I’m still flummoxed and hurt

 

Ever depressed, it sucks

And I need you back

Wait this is madness

For amateur maniacs

 

My pathetic I love you

An ode to before

I’ll try to wait for a day

When I don’t anymore

 

In limbo for the meantime

It’s barren and cold

You keep frost wedging my mind

There are cracks in the scaffold

3.

I can’t explicitly explain myself

So the reasons leak out of me

In more tangible ways than words

I can’t show you the cause you think you want

It’s buried 57 floors underground

 

However, your desertion, well

That didn’t let out a bang

But the effect is loud and bipolar

That I can explain…

 

In the South:

Wild lights and sweaty bodies

Flashing, I burst and implode

I try what I said I wouldn’t

Hips moving, consciously knowing

How to attract the male gaze

Rejecting advances

I dance alone

 

In the North:

I have crusty eyelashes

And no mascara has been applied

I twist my face until I hate it

Why have I allowed this self-pity?

Its blizzard has lasted far too long

With only queasy burning reprieves

I can’t escape it sober

 

So unlike the sediment accretion

That crept up and slowly entranced

The unhappy trysts that never happened

My perverse fabricated romance

 

I am a horrible person

To want what I did then

Now you’ve stripped me down

I wish us plain again

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